GOD-JESUS-WILD HORSES

God-Jesus-Wild Horses is not your normal story, but rather a culmination of my

thoughts and feelings during my first year of intense psychotherapy for childhood-related

post-traumatic stress disorder issues, and how my belief in God, Jesus, and

wild horses gave me the strength to survive the torture and humiliation I was forced

to endure.

My therapist asked me to write down my thoughts and when I started, I could not

stop. I wrote and wrote and the more I wrote, the more memories and intrusive

thoughts would come to mind. It was as if I didn't have any choice in this matter,

I had to get the thoughts out of my head and onto paper; otherwise, I was sure I would

go completely insane. The more I wrote, the more I was encouraged by my treatment

team to publish my writings. My primary goal in publishing is to help others that did

go through similar experiences and/or to help those that are currently being abused.

My abuse was physical, emotional, and sexual at the hands of my father. I was brought

up to honor thy father and mother and didn't fully comprehend what my father was

doing was wrong. I thought since he was my father, he had every right to treat me

however he chose and my punishment was warranted because I was not able to do

anything right. I thought I had a defective brain.

The person that was put on earth to love and care for me didn't just abuse me, he

tortured me using all means that were available to hurt and humiliate and try to do

whatever it took to break my spirit.

My father never did break my spirit because God, Jesus, and wild horses were always

there for me when I needed them the most.